I Love You

What we are, i dont know. Nor i need any explanation. All i know, i love you the same, i ll love you forever. Theres nothing like before between us, except the love i shared. And maybe you too, care for me the same. I dont know really know much about it, but just that, im glad youre still there in my life. Im glad i havent lost you completely, I’m glad i have someone like you to love. I just know, your presence does make me happy how it once made me. The tiny talks, meaningless arguments, it means everything to me. Im yet afraid to lose you, and would still cry hard enough if we depart again. Its all the same i believe, just not the time! And i promise, as i did before, theres nothing much important to me than your happiness. Yes, I’m greedy enough to want you to be happy with me, but loving enough to just see you happy where ever you are. And with or without your knowledge, i would still kill those who hurt you, even if its myself unintentionally. All i wanna tell you in these last words, dont ever be afraid of anything in life, for im right here for you, and i would protect you from all the harm in this universe, and be there until youre forever ceases

Realisation of Love

Love was nothing to me, until i found it within myself, and know how painful it is to lose someone you love! It was just something, some feeling, some pain, some joy, some nothing at all, until i loved someone, and felt that that some was nothing little but everything i have. Or maybe, had.

Drunken by the idea of love

And i suppose, there will come a day, where you would be right infront of me. Drunken by the idea of love, unable to stand still, you ll look at me with your teary eyes. No words to speak, we ll look at each other like theres nothing else that matters anymore. Where i ll see you, like iv got my world within your eyes, and you ll look at me, like your world has just be shattered into pieces. And then, when you would tremble across, i would catch you before you fall. I would hug you so tight, and let you cry as much as you want to. I would sit beside you, and listen to your silence which would speak. And then i would hold your hand, and take you far away, towards the sunset! And as you sleep on my lap, fixing all your broken pieces, i would get drunk! Drunk in the idea of love! And we shall mark our ending this way, sleeping together as the sun sets, holding each other and looking at the stars falling over us! And i would pray to god, to never let our hands let go off each other, to never let our eyes open, but just let us sleep together in the depth of the love

Goodbye, world.

As my wrist bleeds, i can see my hands shiver. I hear screams of people, the ones who are running to me, seeing me bleed. I see them with my eyes turning red, as it gets filled by the tears of my anger. I burn in, but more than that, i break. I look at my hand, and to them again, wondering if they would have run to me like this before, i wouldnt have done something like this to myself. ” Dont come close, or there ll be another hand to bleed. Who are you all? Nothing to me i believe. Stay away, or you see me die.” i couldnt say more, i didnt wanna cry there. These words hit me harder than it hit anybody. “We care for you” they said, making me wonder what beautiful liars they could be. I couldnt reply, i knew it wont matter. Deep inside, i knew i wished they would care for me, but the hurt they gave me didnt let me forgive them. I looked away, i couldnt face them, i was weak. I faced towards the sky, i could feel something wrong. I closed my eyes, and i couldnt feel anything thereafter!

RIP, Mom?

Im scared mom, scared of your absence

Why did you go, hiding your presence

You mean the world to me, all you are my own

Why did your soul leave the body, and left me alone?

You promised to stay with me whenever i would fall

You always walked by my side from the time i started to crawl

Then why did you leave my hand and go away so far

In those heavenly skies, being that brightest star

Every part of my body aches in the pain of your departure

You, being the best mother, best friend and the best teacher

Where i would feel the safest place was sleeping on you lap

With the best songs you sang, giving me the best nap

I wish heaven had a number, so i would talk to you everyday

In a hope that you ll come back to me, someday

Youre the best mom, and you will always be

Mom, i love you, please come back to me

A moment with my bestfriend

I sat there,all alone. Avoiding having conversations with those bestfriends and good friends of mine. I didnt wanna be alone though. I just didnt want those known faces around me anymore. I sat there alone for no longer than 2minutes until you accompanied me. You, the one who had been my bestfriend, once upon a time. You sat next to me, asking me what i was doing. For a little i had known you still, all you wanted to know was the reason for my sadness. I couldnt really tell you though, i didnt feel it right to. But you sat next to me for 5minutes or a little longer. I didnt know i was feeling so good, until you got up to leave! And when you did, i could feel a little pain inside. The one similar to the one id felt when we had stopped talking forever. I felt bad for the feeling id felt. For i realised, i still didnt find anyone who could replace you! And those bestfriends sitting there?! Nevermind! All i wanted to do was, stop you from leaving, ask you to sit besides me, and tell you to talk to me more. And when you left, id realised, all this while you were sitting beside me, i felt id got back my bestfriend. And i knew i didnt need anyone, cuz you being there for me, was everything. But i didnt speak a word, and let you go. I smiled to myself. A smile of sadness. Not being ready to come into reality again. All the memories, the flashbacks came infront of my eyes. I looked at you, and you gave me a smile. I whispered “i miss you” and then, just looked away. Into reality.

Turn around, im here for you

You didnt realise when id walked away from you

For you were busy loving her, but i was waiting for you

Your love for her was true enough, i could see

You love her the most, you used to tell me

But im standing here, far away from your sight

For i cant see you with her, happy and alright

You saw me going, but you didnt do anything

For i knew, to you, i meant nothing

I am waiting for you yet, and it seems too long

For i hope one day you ll call me and ask, what went wrong

But this distance between us, is hurting so bad

How i wish this love for you i wouldve never had

Its killing me inside, that she ll have you for ever

And i know i can have you never

But please come to me, i love you

Just look back, im still here, only waiting for you